Had a dream this morning:
I got a job onboard an oceanliner. Then, after leaving the harbor, we went through a canal. I and another girl saw the opportunity to walk alongside the ship while in the canal. But then it was impossible to get back on to it so it sailed away. The other girl and I was terrified, what to do now, we was supposed to work on that ship. We searched for phonenumbers and other means to contact the ship, but failed. We got lost in a large city without money trying to find a way back to that ship.
Then I started to realise it was a dream and struggled to wake up. When I was halfawake I got mad. Here we go again. They stoped me from what was happening in that meditation and now thay are hunting me with dreams. And, no small train this time, a huge ship was needed.
I went back to sleep as it was still early. Had another dream. But it was not that clear:
I was with the two geologists on a short trip to africa. But there seemed to be no real agenda as it used to be. Just going here and there, planless.
So, now…. am I to be hunted for leaving the “path”? Let me remind you, spirit, whoever you are, I was not the one stopping my progress without any explanation. Get off my back and accept it. You will have to live another life. And that without my ID. “I” will be dead and gone then and you will have so start anew. And, yes, I do feel a bit, nice, revenge. And…………don’t bother my dreams anymore!
Showing posts with label dreams. Show all posts
Showing posts with label dreams. Show all posts
2008-02-23
2007-09-30
Dream of war
Dream:
This was a kind of war dream. Ingemar (one of my troubles) was a teamleader in the dream to defeat the obstacles. No demanding attraction left. Just a teamleader. I found it strange. The dream was a mish-mash with no structure. Think the point was to show Ingemar as the teamleader that should help me fight the war. To show another side of that individual. That his role in my life was the role of obstacle, and now that part is over and the true nature is revealed. Well, suspected that. So, are the universe revealing what it does? What really happened, to earn the respect? To make me trust it? Too early for that yet.
The men
It has always been like I should love them so THEY get happy satisfied or wahtever. They always acted like they demand something and I can´t give as long as they demand it. That is why I always cursed the absolute because I have to go there on my own wish, not on demand. As I see it it is the calm periods when I go on my own that is the most fruitful. As soon as there are stupid messages or pushes I revolt. Why am I not allowed to do this my own way? You dan´t force somebody to love you. Love and respect has to be earned.
This was a kind of war dream. Ingemar (one of my troubles) was a teamleader in the dream to defeat the obstacles. No demanding attraction left. Just a teamleader. I found it strange. The dream was a mish-mash with no structure. Think the point was to show Ingemar as the teamleader that should help me fight the war. To show another side of that individual. That his role in my life was the role of obstacle, and now that part is over and the true nature is revealed. Well, suspected that. So, are the universe revealing what it does? What really happened, to earn the respect? To make me trust it? Too early for that yet.
The men
It has always been like I should love them so THEY get happy satisfied or wahtever. They always acted like they demand something and I can´t give as long as they demand it. That is why I always cursed the absolute because I have to go there on my own wish, not on demand. As I see it it is the calm periods when I go on my own that is the most fruitful. As soon as there are stupid messages or pushes I revolt. Why am I not allowed to do this my own way? You dan´t force somebody to love you. Love and respect has to be earned.
2007-09-01
Dream building
Dream:
I was at some work, newly moved into that area, puters place too high and such. Did not bother until some boss came in. That boss had a big stomach with some vadded stuff around. Said it would keep the back straight. When it was time to go home I looked for what means there was. There should go a bus. Took my stuff, including the dinner I prepared for my parents. Somehow I “messed up” the path to the bus and it was long gone when I got there. Fine with me and I went inside again.
Next part is searching for an exit, seemed I could not stay in the building. Still carrying the food, a small package, I walked around partly uninterested. Somebody was following me. Went throu some narrow passages, then came to some vertical round passage with an opening above. I turned back and asked if that was the way out? There seemed to be a yes as answer. I looked up, the tunnel was lit, hesitated for a moment, then turned back and went into the building again.
yeah, this is how they trick you, curse them! this is perfectly clear! Messages in dreams that means nothing.
after reading a letter from chip I realised that when I went back I no longer carried anything.
the last part reminded of the “old farm” dream when I went up the narrow warn-out stairs.
Chip:
Those dreams you described, tubes are narrow and straight, they are a direct conduit to the end, there is room only for you, not for anything you carry. The room at the top is empty Monica, because it is EMPTY, nothing is brought with you.
till c 070902
I am calmer today even if I still have a towel on my pillow at night. It tends to get wet for some mysterious reason. This morning I had a feeling that this is a battle on a different level. There is nothing you can do except being a friend.
I was at some work, newly moved into that area, puters place too high and such. Did not bother until some boss came in. That boss had a big stomach with some vadded stuff around. Said it would keep the back straight. When it was time to go home I looked for what means there was. There should go a bus. Took my stuff, including the dinner I prepared for my parents. Somehow I “messed up” the path to the bus and it was long gone when I got there. Fine with me and I went inside again.
Next part is searching for an exit, seemed I could not stay in the building. Still carrying the food, a small package, I walked around partly uninterested. Somebody was following me. Went throu some narrow passages, then came to some vertical round passage with an opening above. I turned back and asked if that was the way out? There seemed to be a yes as answer. I looked up, the tunnel was lit, hesitated for a moment, then turned back and went into the building again.
yeah, this is how they trick you, curse them! this is perfectly clear! Messages in dreams that means nothing.
after reading a letter from chip I realised that when I went back I no longer carried anything.
the last part reminded of the “old farm” dream when I went up the narrow warn-out stairs.
Chip:
Those dreams you described, tubes are narrow and straight, they are a direct conduit to the end, there is room only for you, not for anything you carry. The room at the top is empty Monica, because it is EMPTY, nothing is brought with you.
till c 070902
I am calmer today even if I still have a towel on my pillow at night. It tends to get wet for some mysterious reason. This morning I had a feeling that this is a battle on a different level. There is nothing you can do except being a friend.
2007-08-13
Another one
This time I was biking to the job. My college, the third person and I was working on three different jobs. We all did parts on all three jobs. When I was about to leave for home I asked my boss: you send the payment? He just frowned. So I understood there is no payment. Then I frowned too, thought :so what? Then left.
I think there was two dreams as I woke up and then went back to sleep. Don´t remember the second one, just think there was one.
So, now, still no message of WHAT to do. Earlier when I had “working dreams” it was about working on the wrong system where I could not save my work. Think I had a least 10 of them. This time, one part, is the third unknown person. And the uncertainty of getting payd somehow. In the first dream the third person was leading the work somehow, now it is working beside. Taking part of the work.
Still have no message of what to do?? I´m not starting anything again unless I am shown in what direction I shall go. Spirit! Do a better job! We are part of the same, you know I hate riddles. If you can produce riddles, you´re also able to produce something I can use.
If something has to be done, be specific or I will not work. I´ve taken contol of dreams once before when I got mad enough. I can do it again and destroy the dreams.
I think there was two dreams as I woke up and then went back to sleep. Don´t remember the second one, just think there was one.
So, now, still no message of WHAT to do. Earlier when I had “working dreams” it was about working on the wrong system where I could not save my work. Think I had a least 10 of them. This time, one part, is the third unknown person. And the uncertainty of getting payd somehow. In the first dream the third person was leading the work somehow, now it is working beside. Taking part of the work.
Still have no message of what to do?? I´m not starting anything again unless I am shown in what direction I shall go. Spirit! Do a better job! We are part of the same, you know I hate riddles. If you can produce riddles, you´re also able to produce something I can use.
If something has to be done, be specific or I will not work. I´ve taken contol of dreams once before when I got mad enough. I can do it again and destroy the dreams.
2007-07-27
What is not right
Don´t know, but as I am writing down what I go through I will tell what´s on my mind. That is purely what I feel, and not to be considered as right in any way.
Was about to write bad things about others. This matter is strange. I´ve been reading a bit on COT as I thought chips thread “Dreams” was rather good.
Reading that, I noticed how everyone avoid the possibility of “death”. And I felt the little bastard inside me as well. So, logged in and made a post. This thread shows quite clear on what stages people are. And all of them seem to believe they are on the ultimate level.
I have also seen that several people that thought they were finished suddenly turn upside down. They are lost. It is not right.
It forms a pattern. You “climb” the stairs and at every level there seem to be different experiences. And every time you think you have arrived. Now you shall stay forever happy. Just to find yourself starting all over again. It never seem to end. Grim read a lot of scriptures, they too tell about a lot of degrees of enlightenment. How can you EVER be sure you´re done?
They are all so sure and have very good advice to give. Yeah, it is in good faith, but it is just faith. They all talk about being One and one counsiousness. And talk about the death of ego and being united with “God”. But………..despite all talk, you can feel that they still expect to be there to know about it. To be able to experience that glorious moment, the victory when they become one with god.
Myself I seem to be more sensitive and transparent. It kind of works on its own. So, the talk about having to badly want it is wrong. You don´t have to feel guilty for not wanting it as a lot of people tries to make you. It´s not about wanting. The “teachers” that wants you to follow them and tries to make you feel bad if you don´t are wrong. I heard them talk about “spiritual maturity” whatever that is. They talk about dangers if you don´t get crazy for the wonders of that wich they can´t describe. The fun thing is that it seems like those who, to me, seems most genuine, talks the less. They are reluctant to push people.
Something else: yesterday was a good day and I felt blessed.
-My friend had finally got her phoneline fixed and wrote me a letter.
-In the morning I picked berries and mushrooms and I had a lovely butterfly sitting on my hand for a while.
-In the afternoon I kayaked to visit my friend the Grebe. She was sitting on eggs for some time. Yesterday she was alarmed when I arrived which surprised me as she was used to me. Not too much though. I saw that one chick had hatched so that was the reason. It was hiding on her back. You want to see pics? Then, visit my photoblog. The link is on the post above.
Sometimes life is good. No need for god.
Was about to write bad things about others. This matter is strange. I´ve been reading a bit on COT as I thought chips thread “Dreams” was rather good.
Reading that, I noticed how everyone avoid the possibility of “death”. And I felt the little bastard inside me as well. So, logged in and made a post. This thread shows quite clear on what stages people are. And all of them seem to believe they are on the ultimate level.
I have also seen that several people that thought they were finished suddenly turn upside down. They are lost. It is not right.
It forms a pattern. You “climb” the stairs and at every level there seem to be different experiences. And every time you think you have arrived. Now you shall stay forever happy. Just to find yourself starting all over again. It never seem to end. Grim read a lot of scriptures, they too tell about a lot of degrees of enlightenment. How can you EVER be sure you´re done?
They are all so sure and have very good advice to give. Yeah, it is in good faith, but it is just faith. They all talk about being One and one counsiousness. And talk about the death of ego and being united with “God”. But………..despite all talk, you can feel that they still expect to be there to know about it. To be able to experience that glorious moment, the victory when they become one with god.
Myself I seem to be more sensitive and transparent. It kind of works on its own. So, the talk about having to badly want it is wrong. You don´t have to feel guilty for not wanting it as a lot of people tries to make you. It´s not about wanting. The “teachers” that wants you to follow them and tries to make you feel bad if you don´t are wrong. I heard them talk about “spiritual maturity” whatever that is. They talk about dangers if you don´t get crazy for the wonders of that wich they can´t describe. The fun thing is that it seems like those who, to me, seems most genuine, talks the less. They are reluctant to push people.
Something else: yesterday was a good day and I felt blessed.
-My friend had finally got her phoneline fixed and wrote me a letter.
-In the morning I picked berries and mushrooms and I had a lovely butterfly sitting on my hand for a while.
-In the afternoon I kayaked to visit my friend the Grebe. She was sitting on eggs for some time. Yesterday she was alarmed when I arrived which surprised me as she was used to me. Not too much though. I saw that one chick had hatched so that was the reason. It was hiding on her back. You want to see pics? Then, visit my photoblog. The link is on the post above.
Sometimes life is good. No need for god.
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