Owe

1971-04-29
Owe
I had been the mistress to a consultant on my job for some weeks. We worked in the same room at opposite sides. This morning some of us were talking and I was leaning over the middle table.

I and Owe was looking at each other but trying to not make it visible. My eyes going from him to the window, back and forth. I guess that I become hypnotised somehow.

Suddenly everything went quiet and bright around us, everything just dissappeared around us. Then something started to whirl in my stomach and it, something, formed to what I can describe as a “smokeball”. This “ball” roteated the whole time and growed bigger and bigger.at the same time it moved upwards in my body. When it reached the level of the middle of the chest it was so big it could no longer fit into the chest. Then the chest opened in a straight cut and released it. The ball continued to rotate, grow and move upwards until it was before my face. At that point it was so big it covered my head and the shoulderarea, but was in front of me.

Then it stoped rotatingand then both the ball and my body reached out for Owe. Then, like a lightening from above, harsh words came. “HE IS NOT YOURS”. It was calm for a moment then the ball started to rotate backwards, chrinked and dissappeared into the stomach where it had all begun.

Then i “woke up”. Shaked me and returned to my desk. I was pretty shaken. After that event I stoped seeing him.

(1971-12-07 from a mail to a sier, Hanna)

Two years later he came back, his wife divorcing him for cheating. He thought I would be an easy prey and got pissed when I declined the offer to start over. Said I was cold.

Ingemar

Ingemar 1966-1998

He worked at the designgroup when I was employed. We were placed at the desks beside each other. He was married and had three kids. My guess is that he was choosen by his wife, not the other way around. I was single at the time.

The only thing in his mind was sex. Having a single woman beside him was probably too much. He was talking sex, sex, and then some more sex. Being single without a partner that made me crazy. I tried to stop this, but he also affected the other guys so it was impossible. This went on for years. He is also, still, that kind of man that needs to be adored by every woman. And having me around turning away was hard.

So there were a constant fight between us. He to take me in, me to stay away. Luckily we did not have to work that much together. I think he would have divorced if I wanted that. He made me create that huge protective wall around me.

Finally I was able to get another job in the cab-department. (But that ended up with Lage coming around, see another post).

After Lage-event I was transferred to the CAD-team. Ingemar heard about it and showed up at my office. I asked him to leave, but then he put his foot in the door so I could not close. He offered me finally, to be friend with him. What the hell. I had been avoiding him for decades. How stupied can men be?

Anyway, with him there were no strange things happening, just his stubborn need for attention that I did not want to give.