So stupid it makes me angry

This morning I dreamed again. But this time it took me several hours before I realized what it was all about. A coment to my last posting.

I dreamt that my mother, who past away last october, came to the house. She looked very dead. But she was a teacher now, obviously. Then my dad, still alive, was joining her. They made a lot of fuss to be certain I understood that they were going to another town to teach somebody else. They really made it clear that they were leaving to do that.
End of dream.

So, this time it was no missing any trains or cargoships. This time the teacher was going elswhere. Really……..going.

The dream so stupid it makes me sick to my stomach. Where the hell is the wisdom? If this is "guiding" it is sooo bad it makes me ashamed. It behaves like an imature teenager. Pisses me off. Is there no remedy that can poisen this so I get rid of it?

Teachers

I have thought of this a lot. In my experience I could never have a teacher when it comes to spirituallity. But I needed somebody to explain things that happened, and maybe telling me what might happen next. Someone experienced. Not “booklearned”. I always hated when someone told me… this is it! And then I see it is not true to me. I was never able to go from A to B, I seem to be randomly pushed. I´ve never been in charge in this. Every time I try to do something I fail.

There was a young woman on the SDF once. She came forward telling everyone that she was to be the shepherd leading everyone to salvation. The problem was she knew nothing about “sheeps”. To be a teacher, you have to know not only the subject to teach, you also have to know how student works. You have to know about people to be able to teach.

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