Waiting

This annoying feeling is strong today.

Why am I waiting? What am I waiting for?? Why does it make me nervous? I´ve been “waiting” since my middle 20:s. More or less but always waiting. Today it is strong. I almost expect some important being to call on my door and come visit for some important issue.

This waiting also get to my stomach, think I have mentioned that before. It is like when you are going away and are afraid to miss the train. What if I am out when that important visitor comes? And I can´t do anything about it, it lives it´s own life, sort of.

Maybe it is grim that causes this now. I´m excited to see where he goes. I have a feeling.......