A thought surfaced during meditation today.
When human mind evolves towards Rigpa it must also affect the spirit realms. So, it is not only “human mind” that dissolves. It is also what we call spirit and soul. And everything related to it by the nature of karma. If there really are an agreement, of what should be achieved in one life time, then it also affect that which the agreement was made with.
I mean, if I am here to transform into Rigpa (use this word as it popped up latley) then all aspects and ties to “me” in the spirit realms will also go there. What if that part don`t like the idéa either? Thinking of all resistens I have encountered. That does not always makes sense.
Have to elaborate on this further. Has not seen it in that Dzogchen book yet. I wish chip had a messenger so we could discuss it. Mails is good, but sometimes direct communication is better.
Showing posts with label meditation. Show all posts
Showing posts with label meditation. Show all posts
2008-01-30
2008-01-11
Aura cleaning
meditated
just let it flow, after some time I thought I should try to clean that aura again. Pictured it in my mind. then reached out to rub it. Then I remembered it was a sheet now so took it off and put it aside. Looked at it and then let it “go up in smoke”. Then I thought the aura should not be outside me. I should be inside. So pictured me inside it and then reached out to rub it. But instead my hands lifted in a soft gesture and moved slowly around. Energy coming from them, cleaning the aura.
Then I moved the “dark figure” inside as well and joined with it.
Meditation over.
For now I just “move with the flow”, feel like a hatchling wanting to hatch. Have to trust it knows what to do.
This was a more positive one, right?
just let it flow, after some time I thought I should try to clean that aura again. Pictured it in my mind. then reached out to rub it. Then I remembered it was a sheet now so took it off and put it aside. Looked at it and then let it “go up in smoke”. Then I thought the aura should not be outside me. I should be inside. So pictured me inside it and then reached out to rub it. But instead my hands lifted in a soft gesture and moved slowly around. Energy coming from them, cleaning the aura.
Then I moved the “dark figure” inside as well and joined with it.
Meditation over.
For now I just “move with the flow”, feel like a hatchling wanting to hatch. Have to trust it knows what to do.
This was a more positive one, right?
2007-06-05
The Double
Rose in Meditation chapter13, still there, it’s a long chapter.
quote from the e-book:
"The principle of duality has been discussed several times thus far in a large, philosophical
sense. The form of self-study described here also allows one to recognize the experience of dualism in one’s own psychological processing of life—as versus direct experience with-out the reactive interpretation and projection—and to reconcile it. A good metaphor for the start of duality or mental division in our early life experience is that of a cassette tape that jams as the flow of tape gets stuck at some point on the rolling wheel, and then doubles up from that point on. One must follow the tape back to its initial point of stuckness and free it. Once the flow continues, there is only oneness of experience and no trace of there ever having been anything else (i.e. sin, suffering, separation, knowledge of good and evil). This reconciliation of one’s psychic splitting off, whether it resulted from a specific trauma which could not be fully processed and assimilated at the time it occurred or simply due to
the birth of the ego (within the individual mind, which is itself a more diffuse form of ego) in childhood, as previously explained, will be seen to directly relate to the ascendance of the observer up Jacob’s Ladder.
Meditation can then be described as having two simultaneous phases or dimensions to it: first, to define oneself properly as an individual human being by correcting the errors contaminating the ego-mind, and second, to back away from that self—and into the Observer. "
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This might have something to do with my “duality”. Have to look into that. Was it created during the period when I “run away” from granpa? It was a difficult time, when people did not realise what was going on and then wanted me to act in certain ways. My grandma was in trouble because he was angry as I revolted. My parents was also desturbed by what happened. And I could not tell.
I remember I hold “myself” tight to save “me”. Maybe that double was created then. Somehow I created a "cave" where "I" would be safe. I broke free physically, but not mentally. Seems like I now have to “put myself together, before I dismiss it”.
quote from the e-book:
"The principle of duality has been discussed several times thus far in a large, philosophical
sense. The form of self-study described here also allows one to recognize the experience of dualism in one’s own psychological processing of life—as versus direct experience with-out the reactive interpretation and projection—and to reconcile it. A good metaphor for the start of duality or mental division in our early life experience is that of a cassette tape that jams as the flow of tape gets stuck at some point on the rolling wheel, and then doubles up from that point on. One must follow the tape back to its initial point of stuckness and free it. Once the flow continues, there is only oneness of experience and no trace of there ever having been anything else (i.e. sin, suffering, separation, knowledge of good and evil). This reconciliation of one’s psychic splitting off, whether it resulted from a specific trauma which could not be fully processed and assimilated at the time it occurred or simply due to
the birth of the ego (within the individual mind, which is itself a more diffuse form of ego) in childhood, as previously explained, will be seen to directly relate to the ascendance of the observer up Jacob’s Ladder.
Meditation can then be described as having two simultaneous phases or dimensions to it: first, to define oneself properly as an individual human being by correcting the errors contaminating the ego-mind, and second, to back away from that self—and into the Observer. "
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This might have something to do with my “duality”. Have to look into that. Was it created during the period when I “run away” from granpa? It was a difficult time, when people did not realise what was going on and then wanted me to act in certain ways. My grandma was in trouble because he was angry as I revolted. My parents was also desturbed by what happened. And I could not tell.
I remember I hold “myself” tight to save “me”. Maybe that double was created then. Somehow I created a "cave" where "I" would be safe. I broke free physically, but not mentally. Seems like I now have to “put myself together, before I dismiss it”.
2007-02-20
I wonder………
if……..
just realized that I had not meditated indoors since May last year. In June I had the last “hit”. Looking in the backmirror I think it is the meditation that causes the “hits”. When i meditate indoors I go deep. As I learned at the yogaschool. And that is when I had that “brainsplit”.
When I am outdoors it does not work the same way, I let it come natural and focuses out on nature, not inwards. Even if they say it is meditation both ways it works differently in me.
So, I should not meditate? As I can remember it goes like: period of meditation, there comes a “hit”, I go crazy, refuses to do anything spiritual because of the pain. After some time it fades away. Slowly it startes over again. Starts to meditate, gets a “hit”………and, round and round we go..
I feel it is a part of it, even if it is more. During “active” periods I also usually have dreams and other visions. This past 9 months it has been nothing. I havn´t “worked” on it really. Mostly just documented old and new thoughts on the blog. And, kept a window open to friends.
Grim tries to push me, but don´t succed, I circle around it. lol
Science seems to be safe.
just realized that I had not meditated indoors since May last year. In June I had the last “hit”. Looking in the backmirror I think it is the meditation that causes the “hits”. When i meditate indoors I go deep. As I learned at the yogaschool. And that is when I had that “brainsplit”.
When I am outdoors it does not work the same way, I let it come natural and focuses out on nature, not inwards. Even if they say it is meditation both ways it works differently in me.
So, I should not meditate? As I can remember it goes like: period of meditation, there comes a “hit”, I go crazy, refuses to do anything spiritual because of the pain. After some time it fades away. Slowly it startes over again. Starts to meditate, gets a “hit”………and, round and round we go..
I feel it is a part of it, even if it is more. During “active” periods I also usually have dreams and other visions. This past 9 months it has been nothing. I havn´t “worked” on it really. Mostly just documented old and new thoughts on the blog. And, kept a window open to friends.
Grim tries to push me, but don´t succed, I circle around it. lol
Science seems to be safe.
2000-01-04
Meditation and double crown
Right now I seem to want to write to 2 different persons. To Swami Asokananda Yogaville in the states and to Swami Janakananda in Håå. That will make it 2 different outlooks. (If I´m not wrong Janakananda seems to dislike mr Brunton but likes Milarepa.)
This session lasted for 69 minutes. I was working a little on the chackras in the beginning. But instead of the lotus on the head I put the eaglehead there. That does not really make any difference but I like the picture on the card that I bought. An old Indian with an eagleface on his head. Also I read about the eagle and snake symbols yesterday in an article written by Swami Janakananda. From the Internet ”Spiritweb”. It is nothing new about it but I think it guided my thoughts a little. I also started to read the chapter about relativity in Mr Bruntons book. After reading those pages I really whish that he had lived to see this milleniumshift. All the globe worked together in harmoni.
Well, back to the meditation. In my letter to Swami Asokananda. I asked what happens with the body and intellekt if the mind develops far beyond. I think I have the answer now. You don´t have to leave them. Matter, thought and mind is all but a different kind of energy. The question of development is to get in sync with the universe. That makes it possible to work with them all at the same time. I think this is what the ancient yogi Milarepa did. He turned the whole of his beeing into controled energy. That´s why his body could just vanish when he died. It was no longer flesh.
I don´t have all this lights that everybody seem to have. I only exprienced it a few times. I don´t think I need it. I also don´t have this calm feelings or happiness, but I do have the urge for development. What I experience is darkness, but not emptiness. Sometimes I feel like the hole body is starting to vibrate. Especially the head and the hands. The hands sometimes get so stiff and sticking that it aces. There is also something like sounds but it is not a sound. Hard to explain.
Janakananda wrote about the Doublecrown of Egypt. He made an error. Egypt was TWO countrys, thats why the two crowns. When they joined they merged the two into one. For my own there is another way of seeing this. A few years ago when I was very unhappy, I visited Egypt. Then an idéa came to me. I bought a piece of silver. It show the figure of the eye and the snake with the doublecrown. I thought it somehow symbolised me. One of the crowns was my body with its desires, the other was my mind/intellekt with its desires. Seperate, yet unseperable. The Snake was the supervisor. Also linked to the two crowns and unseperable from them, overlooking what the others was argueing and fighting about, shaking its head but unable to do anything about it. I still have to solve this riddle. How to unite them into one? Or maybe they already are, I just don´t see it. The other day I was thinking: The Universe want´s me, I want the Universe. Who wants who? If everything is pure energy, is there really a difference? Is it relevant to make a definition when I am a part of the universe?
Looks like the meditation gave a lot more than I thought.
This session lasted for 69 minutes. I was working a little on the chackras in the beginning. But instead of the lotus on the head I put the eaglehead there. That does not really make any difference but I like the picture on the card that I bought. An old Indian with an eagleface on his head. Also I read about the eagle and snake symbols yesterday in an article written by Swami Janakananda. From the Internet ”Spiritweb”. It is nothing new about it but I think it guided my thoughts a little. I also started to read the chapter about relativity in Mr Bruntons book. After reading those pages I really whish that he had lived to see this milleniumshift. All the globe worked together in harmoni.
Well, back to the meditation. In my letter to Swami Asokananda. I asked what happens with the body and intellekt if the mind develops far beyond. I think I have the answer now. You don´t have to leave them. Matter, thought and mind is all but a different kind of energy. The question of development is to get in sync with the universe. That makes it possible to work with them all at the same time. I think this is what the ancient yogi Milarepa did. He turned the whole of his beeing into controled energy. That´s why his body could just vanish when he died. It was no longer flesh.
I don´t have all this lights that everybody seem to have. I only exprienced it a few times. I don´t think I need it. I also don´t have this calm feelings or happiness, but I do have the urge for development. What I experience is darkness, but not emptiness. Sometimes I feel like the hole body is starting to vibrate. Especially the head and the hands. The hands sometimes get so stiff and sticking that it aces. There is also something like sounds but it is not a sound. Hard to explain.
Janakananda wrote about the Doublecrown of Egypt. He made an error. Egypt was TWO countrys, thats why the two crowns. When they joined they merged the two into one. For my own there is another way of seeing this. A few years ago when I was very unhappy, I visited Egypt. Then an idéa came to me. I bought a piece of silver. It show the figure of the eye and the snake with the doublecrown. I thought it somehow symbolised me. One of the crowns was my body with its desires, the other was my mind/intellekt with its desires. Seperate, yet unseperable. The Snake was the supervisor. Also linked to the two crowns and unseperable from them, overlooking what the others was argueing and fighting about, shaking its head but unable to do anything about it. I still have to solve this riddle. How to unite them into one? Or maybe they already are, I just don´t see it. The other day I was thinking: The Universe want´s me, I want the Universe. Who wants who? If everything is pure energy, is there really a difference? Is it relevant to make a definition when I am a part of the universe?
Looks like the meditation gave a lot more than I thought.
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