This is also one of those disturbing stuff that has been going on the past years.
Like now, a while ago. I woke up, there was promised a sunny day but there are clouds outside. A little voice inside, “so what”!
I am working with those photographs, taking a lot of pics. I started to watch birds, butterflies and even bugs I encounter and are reporting the findings on a Spieces Art Portal. They want to know how the environment are. As I have no job I have time doing this.
I care for my parents, pick berries for them. They don´t have to feel guilty about that as I like picking berries.
My daughter and grandkids mostly needs assistant in money. Then I send them money.
And then brain says, sneaky, inside, like from hiding: It is not important!!!!! Hundreds of times each day it whispers silently. IT IS NOT IMPORTANT!!!!!
SO WHAT!!! SO DAMN WHAT??????? I DON´T CARE. I WILL DO IT ANYWAY. IT IS COMMON HUMAN BUSINESS. I DON´T CARE IF IT IS IMPORTANT OR NOT. A HUMAN HAS THINGS TO TEND TO. STOP TELLING ME IT IS NOT IMPORTANT, TELL ME WHAT THE HELL IS!
CRAP! When I DO something in the spiritual way nowadays, I still gets smashed. SO, what the hell do you want me to do?????????????????????
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2007-08-08
2007-08-06
I hate this!
Had a dream this morning. And I tell you I dream rearely that I remember, mostly when there are some spiritual stuff going on.
This dream was about travel. I was about to make travel with some familymembers. Overseas. The day for departure was in, but I never even packed. Then I asked what time the train was departing to the airport. Noone had even looked for it, me neither. Had to go home in a rush to seek out timetables and pack. Very disturbed.
So, what does this mean? I read the chapter about Auraura on their site. It was appealing somehow. It turned out to be directed to Lightworkers. If her story is true, which I have no reason, really, to doubt, she had have an interesting live to say the least. And here I sit with just fragments of stuff that makes me feel important. What a laugh.
But there are one thing, I once told grim I will not go anywhere unless the question about “life” and “creation” is answered. He could not give it, but this might give that answer. Maybe!
So, went to that site and tried to order that book. Turned out this is new site not really working yet. They wanted people to order that book without even knowing how much it costed. Anyway, filld out the form halfway to make a question. Got an answer this morning but without the prize. Only what item I wanted.
And then this dream, I did not sleep well tonight and I rarely do that too. So, the dream are probably having a connection to the Auraura site.
Does it mean I shall go there? Or does it mean I am going in the wrong direction again? I HATE WHEN THEY SEND MESSAGES THAT I DON´T UNDERSTAND. I WILL NOT EVEN TRY TO UNDERSTAND IT. IF THEY CAN´T SEND ME MESSAGES I UNDERSTAND, THEN KEEP QUIET. SHOUT UP! DON´T BOTHER ME!
I REALLY HATE THIS!!!!!!!
This dream was about travel. I was about to make travel with some familymembers. Overseas. The day for departure was in, but I never even packed. Then I asked what time the train was departing to the airport. Noone had even looked for it, me neither. Had to go home in a rush to seek out timetables and pack. Very disturbed.
So, what does this mean? I read the chapter about Auraura on their site. It was appealing somehow. It turned out to be directed to Lightworkers. If her story is true, which I have no reason, really, to doubt, she had have an interesting live to say the least. And here I sit with just fragments of stuff that makes me feel important. What a laugh.
But there are one thing, I once told grim I will not go anywhere unless the question about “life” and “creation” is answered. He could not give it, but this might give that answer. Maybe!
So, went to that site and tried to order that book. Turned out this is new site not really working yet. They wanted people to order that book without even knowing how much it costed. Anyway, filld out the form halfway to make a question. Got an answer this morning but without the prize. Only what item I wanted.
And then this dream, I did not sleep well tonight and I rarely do that too. So, the dream are probably having a connection to the Auraura site.
Does it mean I shall go there? Or does it mean I am going in the wrong direction again? I HATE WHEN THEY SEND MESSAGES THAT I DON´T UNDERSTAND. I WILL NOT EVEN TRY TO UNDERSTAND IT. IF THEY CAN´T SEND ME MESSAGES I UNDERSTAND, THEN KEEP QUIET. SHOUT UP! DON´T BOTHER ME!
I REALLY HATE THIS!!!!!!!
2007-05-31
R Rose- Sexuality and the Transmutation of Energy
Richard Rose’s Psychology of the Observer:
The Path to Reality Through the Self
by John Kent
Chapter 11.
oh my…..you have to read it to believe it.
R Rose don´t see to have much to offer for a woman. Have read “man” throughout the paper and here he actually says that Rose has only little knowledge of women search. But he certainly know how to use woman to justify male sexuality. And there are a lot of stuff that, kind of, takes responsibility of the male for his sexuality. Even blaming “evil entities on a different plane of stealing sexual energy”. Thus luring the poor man to sexual intercourse, spoiling all chanses to join with “Truth”.
o my´…………….
Quotes:
it could be argued that female homosexuality is primarily a pathological
overreaction to male failure.
As has been explained, 99% of sex has nothing to do with sex, but is the desperate, futile grasping at some compensation for spiritual poverty.
“Sex is the plaything of (unhappy) animals (who are too tired to fight, or think). Chastity is the right of kings.”
The sexual ideal on the most concentrated, kamikaze phase of the path is chastity and an androgynous mind. Rose states the aim should be temporary, total abstinence from the conscious sex act; “temporary” meaning the number of years it takes to achieve one’s spiritual goal, and the rest of this key phrase simply meaning taking a deliberate vacation from the Nature-game to reside in a special grace period reserved for those who need the free space to seek Nature’s Master, and entrusting to the body that its own internal mechanism will regulate itself while in this neutral state, with no willful, ego intervention born of desire. He has on occasion tempered this ideal by saying that a moderate compromise with Nature is grudgingly allowable after some point of spiritual maturity and intuition has been reached.
He agrees with traditional yogic teachings in recommending moral sexual relations once a month within a committed relationship, if unavoidable or seemingly planned by fate, so long as it occurs without identification or psychological need. There is said to be some benefit to the woman in such an arrangement in supplementing her own vital energy, the energy dynamic involved in such natural sex being analogous to using a car battery with the engine running, which recharges it.
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in line with the Law of Progression, that there exist in another dimension, inter-penetrating our own visible one, something he will only call “entities”: beings of some intelligence and willfulness that are a part of Nature and who feed on the vital energy of humans
Furthermore, why would Nature—presumably designed by a Higher Intelligence—contain within it adverse forces that would thwart humanity from reconnecting with that Higher Intelligence?
The full truth of the matter to which the circumstantial evidence points will only become known when all is known.
Rose insists: “I know that there are entities and that they are as real as this physical dimension, and possibly equally as illusory in the final analysis”
The Path to Reality Through the Self
by John Kent
Chapter 11.
oh my…..you have to read it to believe it.
R Rose don´t see to have much to offer for a woman. Have read “man” throughout the paper and here he actually says that Rose has only little knowledge of women search. But he certainly know how to use woman to justify male sexuality. And there are a lot of stuff that, kind of, takes responsibility of the male for his sexuality. Even blaming “evil entities on a different plane of stealing sexual energy”. Thus luring the poor man to sexual intercourse, spoiling all chanses to join with “Truth”.
o my´…………….
Quotes:
it could be argued that female homosexuality is primarily a pathological
overreaction to male failure.
As has been explained, 99% of sex has nothing to do with sex, but is the desperate, futile grasping at some compensation for spiritual poverty.
“Sex is the plaything of (unhappy) animals (who are too tired to fight, or think). Chastity is the right of kings.”
The sexual ideal on the most concentrated, kamikaze phase of the path is chastity and an androgynous mind. Rose states the aim should be temporary, total abstinence from the conscious sex act; “temporary” meaning the number of years it takes to achieve one’s spiritual goal, and the rest of this key phrase simply meaning taking a deliberate vacation from the Nature-game to reside in a special grace period reserved for those who need the free space to seek Nature’s Master, and entrusting to the body that its own internal mechanism will regulate itself while in this neutral state, with no willful, ego intervention born of desire. He has on occasion tempered this ideal by saying that a moderate compromise with Nature is grudgingly allowable after some point of spiritual maturity and intuition has been reached.
He agrees with traditional yogic teachings in recommending moral sexual relations once a month within a committed relationship, if unavoidable or seemingly planned by fate, so long as it occurs without identification or psychological need. There is said to be some benefit to the woman in such an arrangement in supplementing her own vital energy, the energy dynamic involved in such natural sex being analogous to using a car battery with the engine running, which recharges it.
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in line with the Law of Progression, that there exist in another dimension, inter-penetrating our own visible one, something he will only call “entities”: beings of some intelligence and willfulness that are a part of Nature and who feed on the vital energy of humans
Furthermore, why would Nature—presumably designed by a Higher Intelligence—contain within it adverse forces that would thwart humanity from reconnecting with that Higher Intelligence?
The full truth of the matter to which the circumstantial evidence points will only become known when all is known.
Rose insists: “I know that there are entities and that they are as real as this physical dimension, and possibly equally as illusory in the final analysis”
2007-03-04
Crap
Been writing the below notes as a respond to two threads in Collections. But then, why the h-l shall I “teach” awakened people. Why do I have this urge to do this? It is NOT my business.
If awakening don´t produce individuals that are sensitive to others, what the hell are they good for? I can think of nothing else then it is the A that pushes me, bothers me, gives me idéas. And it pisses me off. If it wants “my” services they are welcome to take possession of this body. Don´t bother me. Think I shall buy that camera and start some serious photographing. Found a site where you can ad your photos and get a little pay when somebody downloads them. Worth a try maybe, and would keep mind of the spiritual crap.
If awakening don´t produce individuals that are sensitive to others, what the hell are they good for? I can think of nothing else then it is the A that pushes me, bothers me, gives me idéas. And it pisses me off. If it wants “my” services they are welcome to take possession of this body. Don´t bother me. Think I shall buy that camera and start some serious photographing. Found a site where you can ad your photos and get a little pay when somebody downloads them. Worth a try maybe, and would keep mind of the spiritual crap.
Saw my daughter and granddaughter on the internet right now, playing rugby. 
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the thought that appeared:
Response to what grim assumed: you thought I was refering to all your posts, but I wasn´t. I saw, and felt (I know, not 100% reliable), AsI:s and no-1:s responses. Then I reacted to that. They seemed to wonder why you were never satisfied.
Am in the middle of working out (as in wheightlifting) and this subject on y mind, now I am getting angry, not at you grim, at the Absolute. I might ad something more on the blog later, but this will do for now.
ej på collection.
have been thinking if this should be taken off forum or in here, but you said ELABORATE so, what the heck.
noted:
*chip thought it to be a koan-discussion
but with a koan then u try to understand ONE koan not every single word ro reaction along the line,
*selfseeker said that it is a well established techniqe used by spiritual teachers.
but they sit in ashrams when student has time to think and ponder. I doubt that they are given 20 questions a day.
Grim, you ask too many questions, people has no time to let it sink and do its work. They don´t even know Your status or motives for doing it. I think they have the right to know.
When working with this neti-neti I understand that one takes ONE question and follow it as far down the line as possible. Not working with20 at the same time. And, grim, you jump at everything you see. I saw both no-1-awakens and AsI express doubts on what is going on. I know that when I get everything I say slapt in my face I stop talk and shout down. I think they are at that point.
You also must consider that people might not have time to think throu things. Often a response might be made between work and fetching kids and put them to sleep. A quick response is easily forgotten.
ändra!
I know you refered to what I said in privat, that your name is everywhere. Yes, you still do that. Turning every thread into a single topic. Getting on the way to the Absolute. But when people starts a topic it might be what they want to discuss. Know that people is different, everyone is not meant to go all the way. When you spoil their topic they leave. Remember our fights in the past??
why am I even bothering? So far nobody even managed to convince me that it is important. Shit!!
the thought that appeared:
Response to what grim assumed: you thought I was refering to all your posts, but I wasn´t. I saw, and felt (I know, not 100% reliable), AsI:s and no-1:s responses. Then I reacted to that. They seemed to wonder why you were never satisfied.
Am in the middle of working out (as in wheightlifting) and this subject on y mind, now I am getting angry, not at you grim, at the Absolute. I might ad something more on the blog later, but this will do for now.
ej på collection.
have been thinking if this should be taken off forum or in here, but you said ELABORATE so, what the heck.
noted:
*chip thought it to be a koan-discussion
but with a koan then u try to understand ONE koan not every single word ro reaction along the line,
*selfseeker said that it is a well established techniqe used by spiritual teachers.
but they sit in ashrams when student has time to think and ponder. I doubt that they are given 20 questions a day.
Grim, you ask too many questions, people has no time to let it sink and do its work. They don´t even know Your status or motives for doing it. I think they have the right to know.
When working with this neti-neti I understand that one takes ONE question and follow it as far down the line as possible. Not working with20 at the same time. And, grim, you jump at everything you see. I saw both no-1-awakens and AsI express doubts on what is going on. I know that when I get everything I say slapt in my face I stop talk and shout down. I think they are at that point.
You also must consider that people might not have time to think throu things. Often a response might be made between work and fetching kids and put them to sleep. A quick response is easily forgotten.
ändra!
I know you refered to what I said in privat, that your name is everywhere. Yes, you still do that. Turning every thread into a single topic. Getting on the way to the Absolute. But when people starts a topic it might be what they want to discuss. Know that people is different, everyone is not meant to go all the way. When you spoil their topic they leave. Remember our fights in the past??
why am I even bothering? So far nobody even managed to convince me that it is important. Shit!!
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