The Astral Plane

I have decided to learn about the astral planes.

As I can´t get away from the feeling that I have to know it all. I am not supposed to know “nothing” I am supposed to know “all”. I can´t ignore any part of it.

When I see a human being and it´s complicated structure, both physically and phsycologically and then considers all the astral worlds and the interaction between it all. Reincarnation, guides. Strings, quarks, energies, awareness, matter in all densities. The transitions, the interactions! How delicate the systems work and the design of every thing. How can one just ignore it and say “there is nothing”. “You don´t exist”. If there was no reason for this existence, why is is so delicate and complicated? If it is just a buch of crap, what´s the reason for the marvellous workings? The complicated design? If it is just BS it would be a very simple design. Or I would not be here investigating at all.

How can one just say it does not exist?

Somewhere on the net there are a video that starts with pictures of The Universe. Then it shrinks by the scale of hundred or so. Passes by galax clusters, galaxies, starsystems, solarsystems, planets, living beings, parasites, molecules, atoms, protons, quarks and strings.

Everything interacting and dependent of each other. The basic substance combining itself in different ways to create different kinds of “matter”. All the range from eather to led.

Secret Worlds: The Universe Within
View the Milky Way at 10 million light years from the Earth. Then move through space towards the Earth in successive orders of magnitude until you reach a tall oak tree just outside the buildings of the National High Magnetic Field Laboratory in Tallahassee, Florida. After that, begin to move from the actual size of a leaf into a microscopic world that reveals leaf cell walls, the cell nucleus, chromatin, DNA and finally, into the subatomic universe of electrons and protons.

http://micro.magnet.fsu.edu/primer/java/scienceopticsu/powersof10/index.html



Am reading this article right now.
http://www.spiritual.com.au/articles/astral/astralp1_rbruce.htm

Body

Posted: Aug 8 2006, 08:43 AM by Agyat the unknown in "The path of least resistance"

Please be careful while interpreting this -
I have heard this voice from within while one of those encounters with the unknown -

'If this body is not yours, who are you to sacrifice it.'

From then on, I feel this physical self as a rented house for which I need to 'pay' regularily for this occupancy!

Aurora:
one of those dejavu´s thanks for sharing Agyat

No, the goal can´t be to be nothing.

Pure awareness, The Source, The One, is all there is.

The goal must be to see the truth of all worlds and how they work together as a unit. Be able to shift the point of awareness at will. You can´t deny any part of The One. If you do, it is not The One.

An old thought coming back.

There is no stomach with a knot

There is no stomach with a knot
there is no ME to feel it

then, how can I go through the Veil?
There is no veil, it´s all a lie. And I´m trying to fool myself.

Here we go again

Had a little reminder. It just can´t leave me, can it?

Why is it so fun to put me in the electric chair? This game isn´t fun. The charge is strong enough to put my system in chaos. The book said this is “the touch of god, the light strong enough to sour my eyes” or something like that. And i can´t even shield myself as I never know when it comes. If this is the way to learn trust and love, it´s totally wrong. I don´t trust it a bit. and I think I hate it more then love it. And can´t do a shit about it.

Light souls

Why don´t I find a soul light and fresh as a summerbreeze above the water?

Why does my own not become like that?

Is it my own senses that fools me when I can´t sense them? The light souls! Even those who seem to be enlightened is trapped in matter and don’t fly freely.

Matter is so heavy, pins you to the ground.

I am longing…………..

Wasting time

What´s the point in doing this? Except for wasting time?? What a pointless existence!

Half full or half empty?

http://www.truthrealization.com/permalink/half-full.html

If you have glass half way filled with water would you see it as half full or half empty?



Hi Eddie,

just wanted to make a comment on this last post of yours. Every time I see that story, I smile because my answer is dependent on how thirsty I am. If I am in the desert, the glas is halfempty.
Monica

Neti and Nerves

Neti-Neti, a good thing they say. Does it work? I am not too sure about it. Since that dream about “the tall man taking my things away”, a lot of things has been unattached. I am still attached to nature though so I am not totally free.

BUT, now the question, how do I handle the body? How can I tell the body to act in accordance to the mind and soul?? Do I have to cut out my stomach?? Do surgery to cut those nerves?

There are things like my sister. She has a way of trying to make everone else to think her ways. I am just soo tired of it and we came to a confrontation when I had the last three “energyhits” in the beginning of June. I cut her off as she tried to make me do things I had no wish to do. I had my own problems to attend to.

I don´t care about her anymore. I am just tired of her ways. I have tried to heal our relation. The latest system is called EFT. Should be very good, but no changes in me as I can feel. I have tried to heal and release our relation. How do I conform the body with the mind?? I have tried healingsystems, reasonings, meditations. Nothing seem to do the trick. The body does not care to change.

My mind don´t bother anymore but my bodysystem JUST don´t want another confrontation.

My sister still tries to make me play with dolls.

Maya and enlightenment

I can´t see how one thing is "illusion" and another not. How can ANYTHING be more real or unreal then anything else. There is but ONE Universe and everything in it is REAL.

Don´t measure The Universe from limited senses.

Posted: Aug 2 2006, 07:58 AM by Aurora in Maya and Enlightenment, SDF


I am still working with this blog. There seem to be a pattern in there. But I am not finished yet. A little later I will take a step back and see what patterns there are. I think I am working throu both my human and spiritual lives. This blog and my home as I will move and am throwing away a lot of stuff.

In the bubble & teachers

For a few days now I had this feeling of being in a bubble. I have been here before. It is when you do everything as in a dream. I started to clean out the appartment for the moving in three months time. Then i “clean” out this spiritual mess, trying to get some structure to it. Then reading one of my granddaughters “Magic” books. And no matter what I do I am only half aware. The rest is elsewere.

When I look back I realise this is a period that sometimes comes after those violent and disturbing “hits”. (Se Dark Night) It is like a resting and recovering period. But there are also surges of energy going on. Like whe you loose balance and almost fall. And of course the hands and feet. There is a sound in my head, like background noice.


Been thinking a bit of spiritual teachers. Was looking at the homepage of one yesterday. It has changed remarkebly since the last time I visited. Earlier there was a lot of interresting stuff on that site, now only schedules and a book for sale. OK, they have to live, but it is sad.

I also have been thinking of the troubles I have and how teachers react to it. They don´t! They talk about a harsh path to Enlightenment but then, in their teachings they mostly tries to describe what can´t be described. But as I see it, a good teacher has to recognise the pitfalls and difficulties on every step of the way. For six long years noone could tell me anything about the “hits” of what I now know is either “raw energy” or the "tuch of the Divine". When I asked it was ignored mostly, or not recognised. So much suffering because nobody was able to tell me. What good is teachers if they can´t explain what I go through and guide me through it.

Visits

41 days with 303 visits (7.5 a day), and almost nobody comments? Exept for that Anonymous that wanted to advertice.

Don´t people need to know how rough the road might be? Do they think it is only light and love, and no sorrows?

Knot

Why does that knot in my stomach never go away? Makes me go crazy for no reason at all sometimes. If I could have one whish granted for myself, it would be to remove that knot. It takes a lot of energy to fight it or ignore it, and it does not even seem to be dependent on “fight or flight”. I am not nervous or scared, so why is it there?

Is ist a physical problem? I once heard it was a female problem. :-(

Moving

This morning I was throwing away a lot of things as I am going to move three months from now. Then I was at the lake this late afternoon. Took a quick swim and then sat down reading while drying. Earlier I had been picking some berries but they are dry as we had too little rain.

I had this feeling the whole day. I am working with this blog, and I started to go through my things before moving. I think the urge to move that I had for over a year now, is due to a feeling of “I´m done here”. For so many years this appartment and this forest and lake has seen my tears. Felt my struggles and tried to comfort me. Now it is growing in me that I need to start anew in order to be able to continue. Clean out all sorrows and pains. All stuff I didn´t even know I had weights me down. Both feelings and things. It will be a relief and I hope it cleanses out the path in front of me and let me travel easier.

The only thing here I am not done with is my daughter and my grandkids. But I will not move that far away. And there is MSN.

Thursday

Today I ordered a train ticket to visit my parents on Saturday. But……when I called them to say I´m coming my father told me that my sister already had decided to visit. As our relation is not the best for the moment I decided to wait till next week. It is strange, she refused to go there most of the time for different reasons. Always had a good excuse. Now after I told her I am never going to ask again, then she suddenly started to go there and now she is blocking me. Strange!

This made me think of those trainstation dreams. There are two of them. Think I have to post them.

Dark Night to Enlightenment

Spirit-soul, meditation-contemplation. The book of St John seem to confuse spirit-soul too. It talks rarely about meditation as it seem to think this is no time for medtiation as it does not work. It seems as he uses contemplation as a mean for the Divine to work with the spirit-soul. So far I have no understanding that the contemplating should be done by the human. I don´t understand the book compleately though. There are so many things that fits to my situation. But also some that I don´t recognice. For instance, I don´t have that religious background. I lack the memory of a “wonderful and loving God”. Maybe that was in an earlier lifetime. It seems as the soul can never be sure of if it is “finished”. He mention that often the soul think it is but some impurities still reamain and thus it starts all over again. This is actually the first one christian one I managed to read.

So, I finished it. The book ends at the 10th stage when the soul leaves the body. You are not done until your body is dead.

Later I found a letter from Eddie. Read it throu. It gives a slightly different view of Enlightenment. Guess that The Dark Night is a map of the road to Enlightenment, while Enlightenment is another way of describing the result. And how to live with it.

Eddies response to a SDF-post dated 050413 (LOVE, ILLUSION….)

If knowledge was enough, I would have been The Absolute long ago. But clearly there has to be that cleaning and you can´t do that by yourself. Just one thing, nowhere do we see the reason why it is so difficult to get there. If we come here to Earth, only to struggle all that much, to get back to where we came from?? Eddie gives an answer. “God loves experiences, all of them…” is that right? I remember I had that thought some years ago. The Universe is curious!

Blindfolded

The Dark Night of the Soul
Book Two, chapter 16 part
7. Oh, then, spiritual soul, when you see your appetites darkened, your inclinations dry and constrained, your faculties incapacitated for any interior exercise, do not be afflicted; think of this as a grace, since God is freeing you from yourself and taking from you your own activity. However well your actions may have succeeded, you did not work so completely, perfectly, and securely - because of their impurity and awkwardness - as you do now that God takes you by the hand and guides you in darkness, as though you were blind, along a way and to a place you know not. You would never have succeeded in reaching this place no matter how good your eyes and your feet.


See what I wrote in the “Guided to destiny” post 041126 on SDF.
Quote “Blindfolded I have to go in the direction given.”

I behind the eye

On MSN 060725
Aurora Borealis:
Am looking at your "I" picture
it´s me
JôJðMõJõ¿?
explain
Aurora Borealis:
two days ago I saw the first Hawk in front of my kayak this year. Sailing beautifully. Snakes is my totem. That is the Horus eye that is gurdian. Horus is Hawk. The Lady is coming back, I felt her this evening.

Thanks Jo for letting me post this,

SDF, Choise and Control

Posted: Jul 10 2006, 11:12 AM

shin,they say it is scriptured. They say it is the Dreamer that dreams it all.

The script and the Dreamer dreams me up and gives the plot. I am not the one making choices. The Dreamer are, or the script has already been written and is following it. From that point of view I have no choice or control whatsoever. I am just a puppet.

But the script allows for us to believe we have a choice. That does not make it one.

Change of paths is also in the script. And, we don´t have any choice wich path we are on. If I had a choice, I would not be here. But the Dreamer or the script don´t care.

I was involved in a discussion once, that we might be responsible for our thoughts. But, no......, there are only ONE.

quote shin: “This accepting responsibility is a tool to discover the real extent of our responsiblity in any given situation and not a device to aportion all blame to a victim.”

How can you discover the real extent of our responsibility by taking it all on you?? If you accept it all you don´t analyse it and can´t discover the real ...bla bla bla

To take “responsibility” for everything seem to me to be “to take the easy way out”.

I´m not in charge

That book confirms what I always known. I am not doing anything, it is done by other forces. I am just trying to figure out what the h-l is happening. I am not in charge of this journey.