Here we go again

Had a little reminder. It just can´t leave me, can it?

Why is it so fun to put me in the electric chair? This game isn´t fun. The charge is strong enough to put my system in chaos. The book said this is “the touch of god, the light strong enough to sour my eyes” or something like that. And i can´t even shield myself as I never know when it comes. If this is the way to learn trust and love, it´s totally wrong. I don´t trust it a bit. and I think I hate it more then love it. And can´t do a shit about it.