2008-04-25

Home again

When I woke up this morning my first thought was: where am I? The dissappointment that arose when I discovered I was in my own bed was HUGE.

Realised I always wanted to travel. Ever since I was a teen and wanted to go to Australia and could not. Even the feeling of arriving to the airport was nice even if I had to sleep on a bench as the plane was leaving so early.

Wonder if I ever get to travel again? There is just one problem about travels now, it is almost impossible to avoid churches, and I have no business there. I am building that wall again, to protect myself from further abusements. To be able to live.
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3 comments:

  1. Anonymous30/4/08 20:56

    Your derision is eating you alive! What is it you despise so? Your contempt shows in all of your words, it's the first thing I noticed about you. No matter what anyone says to you, you respond with scorn if it's not what you want to hear. You've given yourself this burden, DROP IT! How will you ever have the eyes to see when your vision is so colored?

    There are many cliches out there, so many that have been used to the point of inanity, they're now worthless pitiful platitudes, you are right about that. But one, one that if followed through with can ONLY lead to where you want to go.

    Drop everything, everything! Nothing is kept, you can not take your derision with you. It is the only thing holding you together, that's obvious from here, and that is your problem. It's become your life preserver, your last vestige of control.

    Sink!

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  2. Aurora1/5/08 16:36

    For a while I was wondering who wrote that respons, but it is really but one person capable of doing that. AND, that proves to me you are not as evolved as you like to believe. To me you have always been that person lying to yourself and everyone else and it seems you still do. If you are a true representative of an enlightened being, if you are really awakened, then I can´t do anything else but despise it.

    You accuse me of being bad, but it is just a fraction of what you have done. You spoiled Jo, you killed the part of me that was Ladyhawk. That part could not survive your hatred it died ans never came back. The hatred you spit out, toxic like snakevenom. And you did it to many people…. never I saw you appologising. You just continued… love, love kiss, kiss, blablabla…. Disgusting! Just hiding the evil within you. And the Universe obviously bought it. So…. it is possible to kiss its ass to get awakened. Well, sorry, I don´t do that.

    Oh my´…. don´t blame me for hateing it. So, maybe that is the reason why it smashes me every now and then. I don´t lick its ass.

    You have no business to visit this blog. Stay away from here. You are still a fraud lying to yourself.

    My idéa of awakening goes FAR beyond what you can imagine. What I have seen and heard from you and others so far, don´t even come close to what it should be. IMO. Maybe that is why you just don´t get it.

    But, don´t worry, I won´t bother you in your nice little heaven.

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  3. Anonymous1/5/08 21:30

    The typical/predictable response is to figure out who you are dealing with, then you can move forward and adjust your reaction/response accordingly. Programming at it's height. I don't know you and you don't know me. I don't know who Jo is. I'm just someone who's been reading your blog for a couple of years. Take a close look at your reaction.

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