Old habits

Sitting here wondering.

The move is done, been here for a month now.

A change, but yet not a change. How come that it is soo hard to change when you are a human? Differenet location, same habits. But I knew that! It was the same when I was young. I used to say, after a few weeks it is the same old, same old. Different streets, same habits.

Don´t misunderstand. I love the surrounding I have seen so far. Mostly as good as, or better than before. So, why do I still feel like this is not what it was supposed to be? Why am I still waiting for “freedom”. I am still trapped in this body, with all human belongings. With the need to pay rent and buy food. It will be better for ecomic reasons and that I will always be able to sit by the lake even when old bones will find it hard to walk.

Yet......... I am still trapped.