It is so strong today and I was somewhat surprised. It has been calm for some days, I even forgot to check the statistics of the blog.
The feeling of being in a place I don´t belong. Traped in a body I don’t fit in. One would think that being in the body for 63 years should make you one with it. But it is still hard for me to accept it´s needs. Like why do I have to eat? Why do I have to go to the loo? Why sleep?
None of this is me so why do I have to put up with it?
A while ago I was thinking of my sister. Her problem with the company she work in. Her main problem is to bend the company to her will. She want´s to be treated fairly.
And so do I. I do the same thing, I´d like to bend Metro to do what it promises. And against better judgement I try to bend it to my will, to be treated fairly. That will never happen.
On the other hand, having this battle with Metro prevents too much disturbens by spiritworld. It is like having to choose between plague and colera.
I better stick to the butterflies and birds. At least they don´t hurt you.
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wow, we seem to be in the same 'dark night.' i've now read your entire blog in the past 24 hours or so. you are my twin.
ReplyDeletegee, you really done that?
ReplyDeletewas about to make an additional post, it finally looses it´s grip over me. And I am happy about that.
So, now I wonder, how come you found me right now?
I´ll be offline for a while am setting up a new computer. But I´ll check back later.