The last couple of days has been kind of emotional. Yesterday it was a very nice autum morning. I took a walk down to the lake. But instead of finding peace there was a black hole in my chest. An empty space that should have been filled with content and peace with self.
Then the internet trouble started and I got furious. That was all that was needed to set all emotions to start. Blaming the Universe for every crap that happens. The longing for death. Why the h-l live a life like this? It´s disgusting. And for no sk-n reason.
Today the intestines started to bleed. They always do when I am troubled. So now I can really live out my hate for the universe. To hell with it.
Who knows? I started this blog because it seem to be so hard to get some understanding when spiritual gets tough. And when NOTHING works. When spiritual sucks and you don´t know why. And can´t do anything about it. Maybe this work will take me to the end of the road.
If you expect joy, bliss and answers. Forget it, this is not the place. This is a warning, it´s not all that fun. The image has the EyeofHorus & PelesTears from Hawaii.
A never ending story.
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