What is not right

Don´t know, but as I am writing down what I go through I will tell what´s on my mind. That is purely what I feel, and not to be considered as right in any way.

Was about to write bad things about others. This matter is strange. I´ve been reading a bit on COT as I thought chips thread “Dreams” was rather good.

Reading that, I noticed how everyone avoid the possibility of “death”. And I felt the little bastard inside me as well. So, logged in and made a post. This thread shows quite clear on what stages people are. And all of them seem to believe they are on the ultimate level.

I have also seen that several people that thought they were finished suddenly turn upside down. They are lost. It is not right.

It forms a pattern. You “climb” the stairs and at every level there seem to be different experiences. And every time you think you have arrived. Now you shall stay forever happy. Just to find yourself starting all over again. It never seem to end. Grim read a lot of scriptures, they too tell about a lot of degrees of enlightenment. How can you EVER be sure you´re done?

They are all so sure and have very good advice to give. Yeah, it is in good faith, but it is just faith. They all talk about being One and one counsiousness. And talk about the death of ego and being united with “God”. But………..despite all talk, you can feel that they still expect to be there to know about it. To be able to experience that glorious moment, the victory when they become one with god.

Myself I seem to be more sensitive and transparent. It kind of works on its own. So, the talk about having to badly want it is wrong. You don´t have to feel guilty for not wanting it as a lot of people tries to make you. It´s not about wanting. The “teachers” that wants you to follow them and tries to make you feel bad if you don´t are wrong. I heard them talk about “spiritual maturity” whatever that is. They talk about dangers if you don´t get crazy for the wonders of that wich they can´t describe. The fun thing is that it seems like those who, to me, seems most genuine, talks the less. They are reluctant to push people.

Something else: yesterday was a good day and I felt blessed.
-My friend had finally got her phoneline fixed and wrote me a letter.
-In the morning I picked berries and mushrooms and I had a lovely butterfly sitting on my hand for a while.
-In the afternoon I kayaked to visit my friend the Grebe. She was sitting on eggs for some time. Yesterday she was alarmed when I arrived which surprised me as she was used to me. Not too much though. I saw that one chick had hatched so that was the reason. It was hiding on her back. You want to see pics? Then, visit my photoblog. The link is on the post above.

Sometimes life is good. No need for god.