2006-09-23

Two of me

Woke up in the morning. The crying feeling still there. And then it started. The last year or so, when I had these “crying sessions” for one reason or another. I always ended up watching myself from outside. Thinking of it I think that sometimes I was outside watching that body crying. Sometimes I was the body noticing the Watcher watching, watching without emotions. Still! As I asume it was the Watcher.

Today was different. I was crying a lot. Then I was two. I was both in the body and outside watching. I cried, aware of the Watcher. I was the Watcher watching the crying body. What was really weird though, was that the Watcher was aware of the pain in the body. And tried to form an arm to be able to tuch and comfort. I could feel the effort in creating that “arm”. Reaching it out. “I” was touching and “I” was touched. Two and One.

Weird!

Tried to reach out to Jo on that Forum but …………..
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  1. Aurora26/10/06 12:03

    From conversation 060926

    Aurora Borealis säger:
    did you read the blog about the watcher when the crying is on?
    Chip säger:
    yes...
    Aurora Borealis säger:
    can the watcher really intervene?
    Chip säger:
    no...
    Chip säger:
    at somepoint...
    Aurora Borealis säger:
    it felt like the same
    Chip säger:
    the "I" was in more evidence then the watcher
    Aurora Borealis säger:
    I ment the "arm"
    Aurora Borealis säger:
    comforting
    Aurora Borealis säger:
    it was hard to do
    Chip säger:
    The "I" wanted to be the watcher...itinvented an arm
    Chip säger:
    it invented
    Aurora Borealis säger:

    Chip säger:
    it was a cool experiencetho..
    Chip säger:
    and at one point the watcher was 'pure'
    Chip säger:
    you got a clear taste of it
    Aurora Borealis säger:
    yes, a nice thing, made me feel "looked after"
    Chip säger:
    it is the basic of your being...
    Chip säger:
    only thing morethen the watcher is...
    Chip säger:
    theAbsolute
    Chip säger:
    here's how it goes...
    Chip säger:
    the doer...
    Aurora Borealis säger:

    Chip säger:
    thethinker...
    Chip säger:
    the watcher...
    Chip säger:
    the Absolute.
    Aurora Borealis säger:
    teh Watcher is aroung rather often now
    Chip säger:
    wonderful
    Aurora Borealis säger:
    around
    Chip säger:
    use it as often as you can
    Chip säger:
    in time it can be invoked
    Aurora Borealis säger:
    I can´t use it, it comes when it wants
    Chip säger:
    but....
    Chip säger:
    assoon as it becomes involved......
    Chip säger:
    know the ego is taking over
    Chip säger:
    you will be able to in time
    Chip säger:
    invoke itthat is
    Aurora Borealis säger:
    I udnerstand
    Chip säger:
    remember how it was when it looked at the crying?
    Chip säger:
    before the arm incident?
    Chip säger:
    try to replicate that kind of awareness
    Aurora Borealis säger:
    it was like I was both at the same time
    Chip säger:
    called bi-location

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