2008-11-26

Caregiving over

Dad past away last sunday. Now I have 6 weeks to finish his home. Last bills, split the home between children and grandchildren. Ending evrything and finally throw away everything nobody wants to keep.

Can´t help but think, now when my caregiving duty is over for now, what is spiritside going to haunt me with now? I bet it will be ugly.

2008-11-11

One of those nights

Again I had one of those nights when the pillow gets wet.

Spirituality knocking on the door making heart sobb. I had to put a towel on the pillow to avoid getting it all soaked down. It took me two hours and two Valeriana pills to finally go to sleep. Today I feel empty.

The only good thing is that it is longer now between those attacks. Hopefully it will subside entirely.