Owe

1971-04-29
Owe
I had been the mistress to a consultant on my job for some weeks. We worked in the same room at opposite sides. This morning some of us were talking and I was leaning over the middle table.

I and Owe was looking at each other but trying to not make it visible. My eyes going from him to the window, back and forth. I guess that I become hypnotised somehow.

Suddenly everything went quiet and bright around us, everything just dissappeared around us. Then something started to whirl in my stomach and it, something, formed to what I can describe as a “smokeball”. This “ball” roteated the whole time and growed bigger and bigger.at the same time it moved upwards in my body. When it reached the level of the middle of the chest it was so big it could no longer fit into the chest. Then the chest opened in a straight cut and released it. The ball continued to rotate, grow and move upwards until it was before my face. At that point it was so big it covered my head and the shoulderarea, but was in front of me.

Then it stoped rotatingand then both the ball and my body reached out for Owe. Then, like a lightening from above, harsh words came. “HE IS NOT YOURS”. It was calm for a moment then the ball started to rotate backwards, chrinked and dissappeared into the stomach where it had all begun.

Then i “woke up”. Shaked me and returned to my desk. I was pretty shaken. After that event I stoped seeing him.

(1971-12-07 from a mail to a sier, Hanna)

Two years later he came back, his wife divorcing him for cheating. He thought I would be an easy prey and got pissed when I declined the offer to start over. Said I was cold.